Every couple of weeks, a new prescription of drug X appears in the mail. It is a chemotherapy drug It is packaged in a plastic bag that contains the words CAUTION: HAZARDOUS DRUG. It is accompanied by several sheets of papers containing cautionary words warning me not to let anyone else touch this drug, and if I touch it I should wash my hands before touching anything else. When I read those words, it does not escape me that I will be putting a large dosage of this drug into my mouth and swallowing it, twice a day.
If I think about this for too long, I won't put this drug into my mouth. So, I don't think about it. I pray. I trust God. And I move forward with the prescribed plan. I ignore the well-meaning comments from friends and family telling me that they would not take chemo and only choose a course of natural remedies if they were diagnosed with cancer. I ignore it because I know now that you don't know exactly what you will do until you hear the words: "I'm sorry. You have cancer." Even then, you're often stuck between a hard decision you don't like and another hard decision you don't like.
So ... I pray. I trust God. I move forward with the prescribed plan. And I remember that "In the infinite wisdom of the Lord of all the earth, each event falls with exact precision into its proper place in the unfolding of God's divine plan. Nothing, however small, however strange, occurs without His ordering or without its particular worthiness of its place in the working out of His purpose; and the end of all will be the manifestation of His glory, and accumulation of His praise.
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