Cancer Musings (No Chemo Day-So Happy)

Today is the first Wednesday in three months that I didn't have to go into the clinic for a chemo infusion, and I am so happy about that. Here's the thing about chemo that most people don't know unless they've experienced it or been close to a loved one who has experienced it. The worst day is usually not the day you have the infusion (unless you have some kind of reaction). That day can be a bit inconvenient and long, but generally I felt okay on that day. Even the day after chemo was usually a pretty good day for me. It's the days that that follow chemo that are difficult days. That's when the side effects kick in. And for me, because I was a bit prone to reactions during the process, they filled me with a lot of extra drugs the day before and the day of chemo to get me through the infusion. Every one of those drugs had their own side effects. So, I spent the rest of the time leading up to the next infusion battling side effects and trying to get my strength back a little so I could do it all over again. 

Today, I do not have to do it all over again. That is a relief, and I'm grateful to God for it. And did I mention, I'm so happy! 

It will probably be awhile before the side effects settle down. I haven't been able to smell anything for three months, which is a very odd experience. Literally, I do not smell anything. And I taste very little, which continues to make eating difficult for me. Oh yeah, and I don't have any hair. Most people don't realize that it's not just the hair on your head that you lose. It is all of your hair. I don't really miss the hair under my arms or the leg hair, but I do miss eyebrows and eyelashes. Eyelashes are not just decorative. They are functional. It's a bit difficult keeping a pair of contact lenses in your eyes without eyelashes. Trust me on this. 

I've heard from my oncology team and several new friends who have gone through similar treatment that it can take 3-6 months for the hair on your head, taste, and smell to return. Encouragingly, I've heard that the eyelashes are the fastest to come back. That's an upside. My contacts will appreciate it. 

There's a bit of road to travel in this journey, but progress has been made. God is good!

Cancer Musings (Physical Therapy)

Though chemo ended last week, my part-time job of attending medical appointments has not ended. A new study has shown that breast cancer patients have benefited from Physical Therapy before surgery to regain strength lost during the chemo process. I was asked if I would be interested in trying that. I'm all about the resources, so I said, "Sign me up". 

I lost a lot of weight during chemo (70 pounds) and consequently, I lost muscle too. I fatigue very easily. My instinct in all of this is to move less and rest more. So, I have been surprised that since I've started attending Physical Therapy (3 sessions so far) that the more I move, the more I can move. It was recommended that I try to take at least three 10-minute walks a day (as well as at least 3 days of some strengthening exercises). That seemed impossible at first. But, the more I do it, the easier it is and the less fatigued I am. I'll have 3 more sessions before the surgery date. 

I'm grateful for all the resources God has provided along this journey, and that He knows me better than I know myself. He knows what I need and He provides it. 

Cancer Musings (Last Chemo-Taxol #12)

Today was my 12th treatment of the Taxol drug, and my last one in this regimen. No more infusion appointments. I am very grateful for that, and it is worth celebrating. I also celebrate the end of sitting with ice packs on my hands and feet for an hour each time (the ice packs will not be missed). 

The last appointment went very well. No complications at all. The practice at this infusion center is that when you complete your course of chemo, they make a ceremony of ringing a bell. All the infusion staff comes out and they clap for you and cheer as you ring the bell. Three of us got to ring the bell today at different times, as we completed our chemo courses. It was a nice bit of closure for this part of the journey. The infusion staff was so knowledgeable, kind, and compassionate through the whole process. I thank God for them. 

The next step in this process is surgery (lumpectomy) to remove the area where the cancer was found and some lymph nodes. That is scheduled for June 3 (outpatient surgery). A week or so after that, I will meet with the oncologist to discuss the pathology results. If it is a complete response to the chemotherapy (no cancer remains on pathology report), it will be followed with a course of radiation to lessen the chances of its return. If signs of cancer remain on the pathology report, it will be followed with an oral (pill) course of chemotherapy. At this point, there have been two ultrasounds of the area since starting chemo, and the tumor remains undetectable, but they don't know for sure until they biopsy the area at time of surgery. We are trusting the Lord with the outcome and the next steps. Prayers for us to do just that are appreciated. 

I've posted the pictures from today below as well as the video of me ringing the bell. My goal was to get through the end of these chemo sessions wearing my favorite winter hats. Thanks to the cool, rainy weather this week, I was able to pull it off.